The Gadoury Dreamer

I feel really lucky to be having the ratings that I've received so far. I feel really, very lucky. This morning, after receiving another email from a review swap that I've been participating in - and seeing the wonderful words of encouragement, I looked up to the ceiling and closed my eyes and kept saying "See Dad? See?" I might have lifted my phone up too - just in case he wanted to see. But I guess, in a way - he does. I wished so much that I could call him and say "Dad!! I'm getting all of these really great reviews, see?" Where-ever you are today Dad - just know that I'm doing this for you.Because even if you're not here anymore on earth, I still feel want to feel your pride inside my heart. So, with that said -- if you haven't had a chance to read "Allerleirauh" please - I encourage you to take a chance. It's a fairy tale - something simple and nice. In the years of war and tribulation, people found solace in f...

This Christmas has been really rough. This is actually the first Christmas without my Father. My Dad died on August 7th of this year (2015) - a beautiful and sunny Friday Morning - around 6am. His death certificate says he died at the Williamsport Hospital, but truth be told - he died at work. He died alone, without his family. He had a heartattack . . . Sometimes I wonder if he knew what was happening. I wonder if he sank to the floor knowing that no one would find him in time. Was he sad? I struggle now spiritually - for I blame God for stealing my Dad away from me. He might have taken my Dad to a beautiful, new world - but he took him away from me during a time when his family needed him. Is that how death really is? You're here one minute and then you're not? It just doesn't seem fair. But then again, my life is hardly fair. the things that I could tell... how this girl who dreamed of love and happiness .. kinda fell short in many ways. My life is full of one heartac...